When i am sad/angry or when i have nothing better to do i was think of things that are bad ...

Greeting again ,
Current mood : sad
Yes ,
Mood swing .
Very fast right ?
I know .
Cause just nao i have nothing to do ,
I suddenly go think about my result ,
First time .


I remember loola told me that i might be able to go sec 2
From the kind of attitude i gave in to my exam papers.
If i retain ,
It makes me more dont feel like studying .
Thats worst .
Because charlene they all wont be with me anymore ,
Thats make me more dont feel like studying .
Thats what she told me seriously .

Then i thought about dearboyboy .
He told me that he wont talk to me if i retain .
I scare he dont want talk to me .


Then i thought about charlene , yixin , laoda
If i really cannot go sec 2 i wont be with them anymore .
I will miss them alot .
I will be slower than them in term of studies


As what loola said
I will stay in 1 Caring and find new friends .
But i rather go 2NT or drop out than staying in 1 Caring .


Just nao ,
I told dearboyboy .
He said he wont wont talk to me
And he will always be with me
He`s sweet isnt ?
I seriously love him alot
If it izz other boys ,
They sure will break up with me .
Because i believe ,
People cannot stand my bloody attitude , 小姐脾气 & 小孩子脾气  .
I know myself
He always cheer me up without fail even though he himself izz sad .
Then i asked him ,
If i really retain ,
Can i quit school ?
He said ,
No
I will listen to him and not quit school .

Yixin told me ,
She will cry if i retain and dont go up sec 2 with her .
I told her dont .


If i really never retain this year ,
I promise ,
I will work hard when i am in sec 2
If i retain this year ,
I promise ,
I wont give any shit to study anymore .